passive communication

4 years of being overseas has reduced my communication abilities dramatically

i forgot how to call my friends
i forgot how to ask my friends out
i forgot how to write to my friends
i forgot how to confide in my friends

i find myself saying "i haven't seen you online for so long!" alot
i find myself wondering how come i feel like i've lost contact with my world for a long time
i find myself missing my friends but i just continue to miss them and not do anything about it
i find myself waiting for supreme forces of nature to create random opportunities for everyone to meet in the virtual online world at the same time
i find myself sometimes ignoring the supreme forces of nature's arrangement and not msging friends who are online

i have the ultimate control over my communication channels, yet i'm giving in to sloth and obsession to tv serials (did i mention i'm done with SATC already?)

i dun think i'm becoming active soon, so my dear friends, 我对不起你们!