random

panic attack

i always feel jittery the night before leaving home.. i thought i should have gotten used to this after so many flights, but it's still there, and it seems to be worsening.. i'll be laying awake thinking whether i will remember to pack my toothbrush the next day, trying to figure out if i've missed anything during packing, worrying that my luggage will be overweight.. and these thoughts race through my head, my heart will pound on my chest so hard that i fear it will break free!

grey's anatomy

and i actually MISSED greys' anatomy last night! to think i've been anticipating its return for so many many many many many days! i was very happy when i realized i'll be in time for its return, to be able to watch it on tv and not on a small miserable computer monitor! and i missed it. i missed it. i cannot believe it. but i must still say that these grey's anatomy fans are getting better and faster at uploading the vids.. u can get it within hours of the show! muahaha.. thank you!!! what would i do without you!

pok

pok's going to be out of contact for another week.. boo.. i wonder how people last time survive ldrs.. they sometimes had to be out of contact for months cos they travel by ship, and they dun have msn/emails so letters take forever to get to each other.. i'm glad i'm not living in those times.. having said that, i feel a little embarrassed to be complaining about the one week.. hehe.. but i still do miss u loads.. *hugs*